GoodBye Dad


The last year has been hard,
I won’t pretend otherwise,
My last words were over a phone,
And my last picture is old.
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You didn’t get to live long,
There are many things you taught me,
Like how to remain strong,
When life treats you wrong.
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But lately I’ve been thinking,
And everything reminds me of you,
So many unasked questions,
And answers that will never be.
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Life has failed to break me yet,
But taking you was a decent attempt,
I still can’t find the perfect way,
To say Goodbye Dad.

Another Reminder Your Not There


When I see the news,
It reminds me,
When I visit the shops,
It reminds me,
Fathers day,
Another reminder,
Family packs,
Without the father,
Advertising emails,
For father and son,
Another sting,
Now that your gone.

Goodbye, Farewell, So Long.


Each day I go out,
I forget your aren’t here,
When I walk to work,
You are just there,
You must be at home,
Where else would you be,
I’m not convincing myself,
It’s just the way it has been,
Then I remember,
And I twinge a little inside,
You aren’t at home,
And haven’t “just popped out,
For a while,”
No,
You are gone,
And can never be seen,
No quick visit,
Or just a cup of tea,
I have to remind myself,
Before I try to call,
You are not here,
No, not at all,
So before I forget,
And dream you are home,
let me say goodbye,
farewell and so long.

Happy Fathers Day


I would write a card,
but it could not reach you,
I would visit,
But I could not meet you,
I would call,
But you could not answer,
I would text,
But you wouldn’t get it,
All I can do is say,
Happy fathers day,
And hope you can hear me.

A Year Since


So that’s it,
Your gone and not coming back,
A year feels so long,
And yet it’s also gone,
I cherish the moments,
And smile at the memories,
Knowing that I can’t call you,
Or just pop round for a tea,
You will be missed,
Not forgotten,
And most of all,
You will continue in me.

Merry Christmas Dad


Merry Christmas Dad,
I know that you’re not here,
It doesn’t mean you’re not,
In my heart this year.
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This is our first year without you,
Your first birthday not here,
The first time I cant say,
Merry Christmas, and see you next year.

What I Would Give


You could recite python,
Without missing a beat,
Make me smile,
From cheek to cheek,
Put me in stitches,
For over a week,
And say you love me,
As big as the street,
Now what I would give,
To hear goodnight one last time.

You could make eggs,
With a runny yoke,
Find the right time,
To tell the perfect joke,
Tried to fix things,
Or just give them a poke,
And say I love you,
As big as you know,
Now what I would give,
To say goodnight one last time.